My FiRsT Date wiTh "X"

I was so happy…because I succeeded in asking her out on 22 Dec 2007 >>

We went for a movie at VivoCity, went to Marche to eat dinner cum supper. Felt really happy having her by my side. Saw her home after that – only to hear that she got scolded for returning home late after I left – poor thing. I shall improve myself ~ since you have feedback that I am not caring enough towards you ~ And I promise you I will improve all my flaws - being more confident, talk better, and being more straightforward. Although I really worry a lot about not being able to live up to your expectations, I shall nevertheless work hard on it !! ~

Yes, it has only been a few days but …

I miss her VERY VERY much. She was always the one to initiate conversations with me online. After a long time of careful selection, I decided to get her a bag for Christmas. Hope that she would love it. Although I do not know if I should give this one last chance, having tried is better than not trying, therefore I shall embrace the arms of L-O-V-E for one last time. I will give all that I have, and pray for the best. If there is going to be an end to it, its all over for me. That’s it then for my love life – I shall brand myself a Failure in that. I will live life for myself, never for anyone else again. If things do not work out good, I shall and will stay single for life >>

~ Thanks my dear colleagues for lovely Christmas gifts ~

I am going to need all the support I can find. Love, Career, Studies, my future, is all uncertain for now. Although everyone tells me that I can make it, can I really create miracles? I have never been successful in relationships, my job now has little prospect, my studies are not excellent either, my future is blurry now ~

Gonna have to face all these with more confidence and support. I shall work even harder from now on, in hope of being with you in future.

I resolve to be a more talkative person, to be able to talk and joke well, to be able to understand your needs well, and also to be what you expect. I know even though you do not spell things out, I know very well that you expect a lot from me. I have started working on those, and I will get there. Now I only hope that by that time, you will continue to give me a chance throughout this time. I swear the next date for me and you will be a better one, and I will only bring you to places that I know well >>

Lastly to end this post, since I can’t tell you this in person, I shall pour it out here >>

“ ~ I LOVE YOU ~ ”

~Nicknick's WeARY JoUrNeY~ "X"

Hi all dear readers out there Nicknick is finally back!! =D

Everything’s over!! =)

Okay okay…not quite. Last battle to beat would be Boon Lay CC’s Concert – sorrie I should say variety show – on the 30 Dec 2007, Esplanade Concert Hall– featuring Joi Chua!! Woo hooo >> She’s young, pretty, talented and has a great voice. Looking forward to see her live in concert!!

Hectic life for this December 2007. Haiz, Felt like I let myself down by not achieving much during this year. Bottoms up to me passing Grade 9!!! Yeah yeah….feel so lucky to have scraped through it!! Diploma and Grade 10’s on the way!!~

Let’s see how many courses I have fulfilled this year - 3 + 10 + 3 + 5 +10 = 31 Credit Units - that means about 90 more credit units to go!! What the heck..still a long way. 2008 is coming pretty soon. What is in stall for me >> ?

Started preparing for Pipa Diploma and financial planning. Been busy planning for a proposal of a Youth Group near my place. I’m going to need lots of support as I will be doing most of the things alone. Dear CO lovers and friends out there, lend me your encouragement and support! I’ll be hang in there!~

I met her - and got to know her better. I shall refer to her as “X” for now. Like me, she’s a libran, plays zhongruan, and is same age as my brother. A mysterious air constantly surrounds her as she roams the streets, with those rather cold but focused eyes. No doubt that she is special in her own way, having her own rationale and expectations out of life. To chat with her felt really great >> Well, she’s capable, smart, intelligent, sophisticated, elegant, cute, pretty……well oh my god what else can I say. She’s got it almost all. Having just completed her JC2, she’ll be blossoming into a young adult soon in a year’s time. Currently working now in a tough grueling environment, and will be furthering her studies in university next year. I understand – working is never easy, furthermore yours is a big established company and you are in a job that is more frontline demanding – I know it has been very tough on you >> do hang in there okay? I know it’s not easy - feel free let me know should you need a listening ear – I shall be more than glad to offer help. Just hope to be able to chat more with you, shan’t ask for much >> It feels great to be able to share my experiences with you, and I hope to be able to learn from your experiences too, and I really hope to be able to know you better. All I‘d ask for is just to be able to see you, pray that you’d be safe and sound anywhere, and that you are fine at your job with everything going smoothly, and wishing that you will stay happy and lead a fun and fulfilling life. May the force be with you! ~ What more can I ask for, besides your happiness and safety in everything you do ~ I don’t think I am asking for too much, aren’t I?

Listening to Corrine’s May’s “Fly Away” as I blog through this post ~ while constantly telling myself not to think too much